swollen...

i am quiet most of the time.
i just stare and think.
my words get frozen within my lungs
and i believe my thoughts are deadly
and there's probably a quarantine
surrounding my lungs.
people tend to ask me,
"why are you so quiet?"
i just smile, laugh, and shrug.
i am quiet most of the time
but my mind is
l o u d
my mind is
s c r e a m i n g
i wish it weren't quiet
i wish i shared my emotions easily.
i do not know how to start.
my words get frozen within my 
swollen lungs.